Because you

2009-04-21T22:13:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I don't know why I'm back here. I might just switch back to good old blogger for good in time to come. Or maybe the reason why this space still appeals could be because no one comes in here anymore, since I started the lj. Or at least that's what I think.

Anyway, lately I've been wondering why it seems as though life is so bleak and, monotone? And it's not just me I'm sure. I've been seeing/hearing little complains of life being unmotivating and all. What is it about this period that makes life seem harder to live? How did goals and dreams get so foggy all of a sudden? Why is it so darn difficult to keep that once burning flame of passion alive?

I want to feel alive again, to feel like I am living everyday the right way, to know what I want and where I'm going to head, and to have the confidence and inquisitiveness to head there.

But how am I going to get back all that? Someone teach me, please?

2009-04-07T02:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you wonder who are the ones who are true and will stick around, and you begin to realise that there will always be the few people who appear close but no, they really aren't. They really are just really good friends for a fun period of time until you start to drift apart.

And that's when you begin to wonder, if there'll ever be any single soul who'll really stick it out with you and share similar values in life. Someone who really knew all your likes and dislikes, who've seen you grow up, whom you know can trust, and can entrust your faith in the relationship, knowing that no matter where and when, there's still that friend who cares, and whom you can see growing old with.

I'm trying again, to have faith in this last possible one. I hope all will be well.
I hope this time I won't be wrong.

After the walk

2009-04-05T20:24:00.003+08:00

Because sometimes when you're in another country you tend to think more, and you see things from far away, and realise that there are so many little things that you've missed. The closer you are to them, the less obvious they appear to be.

I wonder what you're doing now, I wonder if you're also wondering what I'm doing. I'm walking the streets of a place I do not know, that I have never been to. Are you doing the same too?

I think I really will miss this place. I didn't think I would as much, but then again, I didn't think I'll miss Singapore, yet I did. I'm starting to really see the place I'm now living in, and I'm taking it all in the way I would back in Singapore.

Only 5 more days. Then it's back to the old life.

2009-04-04T21:50:00.003+08:00

Alright I'm blogging here cos I can't access livejournal here in china I have no idea why. And I really want to blog right now even though I've forgotton that I actually have blogs the past 2 weeks or so. So I'm back at blogger for awhile. Even though I doubt anyone will find this post. Oh well.

Anyway. China's been nice and I miss home.

Hmm. Next topic.

You know how sometimes in life you know you want to go far and to others you appear to be reaching out but deep down you really feel like you havent done anything to improve yourself and then you see how much others have been doing. Wow long sentence there but whatever.

Dont really know what my point was but just felt the need to get that out.

Right. Debrief time. Bye.

Because it has been a long while..

2009-03-21T16:21:00.003+08:00

Because it has been a long while since I last posted here. Just felt like it all of a sudden. Am bored of the first post whenever I come here.

Life has been changing so much, it's quite hard to believe.

3 weeks of china soon, then 1 pathetic week of holidays. Timbre and cycling please.

Goodbye.

officially moved

2009-02-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

http://yapyingster.livejournal.com

Think i'll miss blogger for awhile, but i really feel the need for private entries. Anyway, this one's not gonna be deleted.

So bye.

2009-02-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Am sorry if the layout appears to be weird because it works perfectly fine for me. The layout's quite off in the school's ie for some weird reason.

Yea.

Bye.

2009-02-11T14:02:00.004+08:00

School feels pretty weird right now because I only have morning lessons and this module's pretty slack (veron's the lect what do u expect) so I've been home early for a few days already. Anw. In about 6 wks time we're gonna be year threes, like what val said. Amazing how time flies. Soon it'll be SIP then FYP and then graduation. o.O

There has been a lot of bugs flying around lately. I'm annoyed.

ANYWAY. I'm going to continue Vday's presents. Feeling lazy though. Hmm.

2009-02-09T00:59:00.001+08:00

i see the need to communicate.
hurry let time pass quicker.

2009-02-08T11:11:00.005+08:00

New blogskin finally. I woke up early and was in a relatively good mood thus the effort. Sorry for the long torture, your eyes will longer be in pain when reading my blog. Still looking for a bg though. I don't like this one.

I've got a new keyboard now! Lugged it home after dinner at cousin's house. She havent used it for a year or so and asked me to bring it home if I want to. So now it's mine!

(:

Shall do work soon.

2009-02-07T14:05:00.002+08:00

Stop saying the words that I don't want to hear. No matter how I think I'm okay, I don't think I really am deep down.

If you just realizeWhat I just realizedThat we’d be perfect for each otherAnd we’ll never find anotherJust realizeWhat I just realizedWe’d never have to wonderIf we missed out on each other, now

Meet PP!

2009-02-07T10:25:00.007+08:00

This is where he came from.

2009-02-06T21:39:00.003+08:00

I have so much to say. So much that I want to tell you. I need to tell someone, but no one's right.
I shall wait. It'll all pass soon.

2 more weeks.

There's so much going on in my mind. I'm kind of overwhelmed.

2009-02-06T00:37:00.005+08:00

I really really dont want to grow up. I dont want to face the pains that may come. I dont want to grow up and find myself crying to a child. I'm scared of what might happen.

I dont like the uncertainty. Not one bit. Even more so after what Ive seen. And felt. It felt weird.

please dont let it happen to me too. please?

2009-02-05T23:37:00.004+08:00

Adcad's finally over and done with. Not for eir though. One more day! And then it'll be draping all the way. Ooh that rhymes.

And I've been coughing since cny. It's just been getting worse. It's the I-want-to-get-that-itch-out-of-my-throat kind of cough that's so bloody annoying. So I'm sorry if I've been germing the things around me.

V-day's coming! Lots of stuff to do~

Fly Away by Corrine May

2009-02-02T10:54:00.005+08:00

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

it might not be yet.

2009-02-02T01:45:00.002+08:00

They say 18 is a very young age. You still have a long way to go when you're 18.

But the past 18 years have given me a lot of memories already. I wonder how much more the next few years are going to give me.

It's been amazing how everything just links back to the same place. That one place that people have brought me to, and vice versa. The one place with so, so, much memories. I wonder if it can contain anymore.

Feels weird to so easily link something to people, when they are no longer there. All that remains is the something I link them to.

because we're all together, never alone

2009-01-30T22:31:00.003+08:00

Lots of thoughts been going on in my head recently. Seems like everything's telling me a lil something.

From now on I will be aware that no matter what I do, no matter how I feel, I'm not the only one doing it, not alone in feeling it. I just need to find my way somehow, either with sure footsteps or with uncertain hands groping the darkness before me.

My heart can't feel everything. I need my eyes and my mind to help me.

I will make my decision when I know it's right. I will find the love when I feel it. I will be brave, brave enough to let tears fall, wipe them away, and move on.

When the time is right.

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To you:
I guess we've all changed. I guess that change brought us apart. Or maybe not. Maybe there were other reasons. I don't know. But whatever it is, we don't feel anything, we(I) stopped trying to salvage anything, and that really says something more than words can ever describe.
I'm glad I felt the least for this ending out of all others. Or maybe there's just too many mixed feelings. I don't know.

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Sorry for the bablings. Need to get stuff off my system.

Why oh why doesnt blogger have private posts features. I want to switch but I want my archives too. Sigh.

Resolutions

2009-01-27T00:22:00.002+08:00

I think I do have resolutions for the new year after all. I know I'm late la but cny's not over.

1. Practise more self-disipline
2.Be stronger, emotionally and mentally
3. Be more productive, procrastinate less
4. Be a quicker thinker!
5. Be more self-reliant

Sigh. Sounds difficult. We shall see.

One last cny holiday before school starts again. =(

25th

2009-01-25T11:45:00.003+08:00

Last night I dreamt that ECP flooded MP. And the flooding wasn't done by just the water. Even the sand was slowly covering the roads and pavements. And the stray cats and dogs had to go up to the top level of the carpark because they had nowhere else to go.

I keep having weird dreams.

The winner's still the one with world war in my pri sch and me dancing from star to star.

=.=

2009-01-20T23:39:00.002+08:00

You know at certain points of your life there are people who leave you, and other times you leave the people who loves you as well, whether you choose to or unknowingly?

I hope the next time either one happens again in my life it happens for the right reason.

So that when I look back, it will be without regret. And when I reminisce, it will be with a smile, no longer a sigh.

2009-01-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

My parents are so childishly idiotic.

Angel in Disguise by Corrine May

2009-01-18T15:21:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Oooh~~

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new

boing

2009-01-17T20:56:00.002+08:00

I spent the whole of today playing lame puzzle games and only managed to type two sentences for my report in between the 5 hours. And now I feel like puking because I played this really giddying game.

=.=

tsk. Where have all the motivation gone.

Now life's so monotonous and I'm so bored. Which is idiotic of me to think that way because when the hectic times come rushing in Im going to wish so much for this monotony.

Shall continue work tomorrow. I give up.

2009-01-17T01:13:00.002+08:00

Seeing how caring had really been useless, I feel dumb for even bothering. How come I always feel like the one giving in. This time I wish I really am cruel. Letting things go is so much easier. I'm letting you go once and for all. No more turning back. Just like things were with the other two.

Dumb rantings.

Anw, I really still want answers, though now I no longer know what I'm going to do with them.

Feeling dumb today.

Ma.

2009-01-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

Watch this. Damn touching vid.

look what i found!

2009-01-13T11:35:00.002+08:00

(a lot) More at http://corcholat.com/!UeO haha.

flea market style

2009-01-11T15:54:00.009+08:00

Shiqi found this book in the school library..

Dream home dream home dream home dream home

I want I want I want I want I want I want I want

Dream home please.

2009-01-10T22:11:00.004+08:00

Parents went to see 2 units today and I tagged along. Mummy wants to move out of beautiful marine parade to some ulu west area.

I don't very like the west. I'm born an east-sider. ):

The 2nd unit was really reeeeeaaaally pretty though. Complete with a cute tiny patio and country style kitchen.

But it's at bukit panjang. I don't even know where that is on the singapore map.

Dad even wants to consider woodlands Idon'tknowforwhatshit.

):

I'm losing the motivation to do work. No good no good. Am kind of getting sick of illustrator already and it's not even the 2nd week. ohmygod. And EIR is boring as ever.

[edit]
alright i just realised my blogskin has really really small fonts. alright im convinced. i shall change skin soon once i have the time.

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Where should I place the words that I want so badly to tell you?

2009-01-09T15:31:00.002+08:00

Shits i'm so irritated right now. I wasted the whole day because of technicle hiccups. Seriously, why do I have such bad affinity with technical stuff. OMGZZZZZ.

Come on, things, work for me grrrrr.

I'm not afraid of growing old now

2009-01-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

"Old age, I decided, is a gift.

I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I sometime despair over my body - the wrinkles, the baggy eyes and the sagging butt. And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my mirror, but I don't agonize over those things for long.

I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become more kind to myself and less critical of myself. I've become my own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to overeat, to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging.

Whose business is it if I choose to read until 4:00 am and sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 50s & 60s, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love, I will. I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the bikini set. They, too, will get old.

I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten and I eventually remember the important things. Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when a beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turn gray and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So many have never laughed and so many have died before their hair could turn silver. I can say "no" and mean it. I can say "yes" and mean it. As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think. I don't question myself anymore. I've even earned the right to be wrong.

So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day."

Laas.

2009-01-08T20:55:00.003+08:00

When your life seems almost perfect except for that one thing that you yearn so much for. It suddenly appears and then your whole life seems to be unsatisfactory and begins to tumble down. How come some people get it all yet others don't no matter how much they wish for it, no matter how much they try.

I think I need to change my mindset about things. It's making me tired, and I can't afford to be tired all the time. Chiong period will come soon. I need to buck up.

Help me?

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I don't get it. When parents compare your upbringing to others and blame your character on it, isn't it not entirely your fault because you aren't the one in full control of how you are brought up, no matter how much you wish you were?

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Some randomness:

On the Shan and Roz show Roz said people can be addicted to carbo, just like how smokers are addicted to nicotine and whatnot in cigarettes.

I think I am addicted to carbo.

Why else would I love rice over noodles so much.

"Morning!"

2009-01-07T10:49:00.003+08:00

I like bus drivers that greet. Makes my day that bit more pleasant.

this was how 2008 felt like

2009-01-03T21:50:00.007+08:00

Just felt like doing this all of a sudden. 2008 has gone by so quickly I don't remember if some of the photos belong to 2008 or 2007.

Glad I still have them.

The dumb friends I have:

Yan's birthday has the best pics..

Forgot if this was in '07 or '08 but I miss those times all the same.

Didn't know I saved this. Glad I did though. It still makes me laugh:

Can't remember when this was. Erm. Yep.

And lastly, Countdown '08. (:

I don't have Genting photos in this comp, sadly.

Anyway, hope 2009 will be good. Something great already happened. SHI FOUND MY BOOK! THE BOOK WHICH I THOUGHT WAS GONE FOR GOOD. YES YES THE BOOK! IFYOUCOULDSEEMENOWBOOK!
((((((((((((((((((((:
Stained cover plus folded corners and all, i'm still glad that it's back. I'm going to read it again.

"I imagine their past lifes. So...I framed some of them."

2009-01-03T00:16:00.006+08:00

http://www.theselby.com/12_6_08_daniela_kamiliotis/index.html

the year 2008 in photographs

2009-01-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/12/the_year_2008_in_photographs_p.html

'09

2009-01-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

So 2009's finally here. Feels weird really. It's hard to believe it's the new year already.

I guess everyone's blogged their resolutions and all that already. Don't really have the urge to though, as with previous years. So here's just a short update.

On top of feeling frustrated when my internet was down, I felt strangely at peace and all ready for the new year. I'm not dreading school as much anymore, which is really really good. And I managed to finish a few chores that I would probably have procrastinated. I've also finished The Gift and The Wedding. Good books. Gonna start on a new one soon.

Looking forward to starting school I guess. Though I'll prolly feel like dying halfway through.

not in the mood to

2008-12-31T00:32:00.002+08:00

this year has been so quiet i almost cant believe.

~~for the last day of 2008, all i want are answers. and im going to keep asking till i get it, no matter how naive it may all be.~~

i still dont have my answers. when will they come to me?

Just for this moment, this realization.

2008-12-29T17:43:00.005+08:00

One wrong move made and everything's gone. Nothing, nothing, can turn things back to how they were before.
Hope this slaps you awake.
And that words of spite bites down as hard on you.

Because I have totally given up all hopes and good thoughts. I'm not going to give this another chance. This is probably the end. I have nothing to do with all these anymore.

And you caused it. Not me. It can never be. for I tried so many times.

Trust betrayed and faith broken. For you're the one person I never imagined I could lose.

[edit]
And for the very first time since, I cried because of this, for the lost of it. And with a start I saw with horror how everything is going to repeat itself all over again, just like how it did then with

It's a Monday.

2008-12-29T17:09:00.003+08:00

School's starting in a week, and I'm dreading it really, really badly.

Idontwanttogotoschoolidontwanttogotoschoolidontwanttogotoschoolidontwanttogotoschool.

I forgot what else I wanted to blog about.

I want/need brown/gold sandals, and am craving for Green Tea Latte very badly. That drink is so so so soothing. I want it so much and to curl up on my sofa with it and The Gift. But I'm currently still in my pjs and it's dumb to change just to get it so I'm praying an angel will arrive with it on my doorstep.

Sigh.

Mingbei we need to hurry go register hor!

Twilight tomorrow. Hopefully there will be seats available.

Yesterday was fun and well-spent. I bladed and cycled my life away. Photos with theoneswhoarealwaysaround will be up once I manage to get the computer detect my phone. Howidonotknow.

I'm sorry for typing without spaces but sometimes it's fun.

Can someone buy me my drink please? Pretty please? =(

colorgenics

2008-12-26T13:27:00.000+08:00

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

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Yes it's accurate.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

2008-12-26T12:39:00.007+08:00

The past week's been great. Slacking, going out when I need to, doing stuff at my own pace, waking without the alarm, falling asleep with a book in my hands...

One more week to go. Shall make full use of this one week.

One week before the horror starts and life goes downhill again. Always seems that way when school starts.

Day out with them on eve of eve. Dinner with mark's family on eve. Kaysee's birthday and mahjong straight after, then it was Christmas and home to parents in the living room laughing at The Pink Panther.

Sad to say I didn't get to see all I love by Christmas. In a way this year's one was really different.
I miss so many people.

I am so bored I'm blogging everything in my life. Sighs.

I want family dinner photos leh.

I've started on The Gift! (:
I know he bought it, but thanks yan. HAHAH.

I ripped from Li.

2008-12-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

The Blind Boy

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: "I am blind, please help." There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy.

That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"

The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way."

What he had written was: "Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it."

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind.

Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Moral of the Story:

Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.

Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets.

When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Great men say, "Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness. In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience."

The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling.

And even more beautiful, is knowing you are the reason behind it.

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Christmas was good. Merry Christmas to all.

2008-12-22T12:27:00.003+08:00

Was sorting out the presents and stuff. And all these are mine! (:

It's quite little compared to the whole amt I actually bought.
Erm the fox keychain is from the Uncle who bought for all the girl cousins. =.=

Now I have to find sth else to do to kill my boredom.

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Was very bored so

2008-12-21T12:36:00.005+08:00

This is prolly my fave.

Okay bye.

2008-12-21T00:29:00.017+08:00

Day 4

Off to the wet market. Even their markets are really clean.

Warning. (Quite) gross things ahead.

See this? It's actually whole octopuses. That round things beside the tentacles are the heads. It's really much grosser up close cos the head's wrinkly. Heh.

Bottles of fish roe.

They allow sampling and their fish roe is damn big and juicy!

The place's known for their melons.

Really really fat prawns and cute squids.

Our lunch:

Does this make you hungry?

Next was beer factory.

FOC sampling.

Tiny cash register that I was really intrigued by.

Clock tower+group shot.

Pink and white hair salon with only (good looking) guy hairdressers.

Our dinner. See that white cauliflower like thing in the corner? It's fish sperm. Tastes ew. And the brown stuff below is scallops. They have it in practically every meal. I like scallops now. They're really nice. Oh and i forgot to mention, their rice is always really, really good.

Day 5

The big shopping day.

Racks and racks of boots. Ankle, calf length, knee high. Sigh. They should have these in Singapore. Racks of ankle boots at least?

Uniqlo!

The jacket that I really really wanted was out of stock. =(

This machine dispenses wet tissues.

The next great shopping place-Rera Chitose Outlet Mall:

This place is superb I tell you! This is where all the factory stores of many different brands are. From Coach to Salvatore to Adidas to Gap. They also have Claire's, Furla, Triumph, Wacoal, Vans, Vivienne Westwood etc.

I got Vans at 55% off (:

Shiokness.

Really cute kids. The little girl in the first photo actually posed for my mum to shoot.

At the airport before domestic flight.

Repacking cos everyone bought too much. Haha.

Day 6

See the pile of baggage behind David? It grew by like another half the size of this later on. It's quite scary how much stuff we all bought.

Hairdresser's signboard.

Even their manhole covers are pretty.

Killing of eels on the spot for the freshest unagi:

Temple:

Then flight back home where I rewatched The Dark Knight and Love Actually.

I forgot to add, the houses there in the city are really colourful and cute.

Yep. So that's the whole trip and now I'm back in sunny Singapore. Felt really weird to be back at first. I don't know why.

Ethel's off to South Africa, Bei's going to Batam soon, and from Jas's blog I guess she's also going off to KL, plus The Guy is at Genting. Everyone's travelling. Woooo. Get me something okay cos I got stuffs for you all hahah.

Alright end of trip story finally. Off to get the xmas cards ready.

2008-12-20T22:54:00.010+08:00

Day 3

Breakfast with superb view:

Charging machine. CHarges your phone, camera, batteries, whatever. They should totally have this here in Singapore too.

Great views:

Next up is snow mobiling! It's like the most fun part about the whole trip! The one hour passed really fast. It ended when I thought it was just starting. =(

And while some of us are away among snowy trees this 3-yr-old gets entertained by her mum and grandparents. She is very cute I tell you! She doesn't know the story of Cinderella so she makes up her own and then a blue Tweety bird comes along and it became the bad guy. And everytime we travel her voice can be heard through the coach when everyone's silent and resting. Funny kid.

More snow.

View from hotel room.

This was fun too.

For the last ride we tried going down in a string of 7. David said it's quite impossible but can try, and we succeeded! That last ride was damn shiok! No photos of it for now though. Will try to get.

Look. This hotel provided everything from brushes to shavers to Q-tips. Even rubber bands la please. Which hotel does this?

Dinner was at this really really beautiful place linked to the hotel. It has ceiling to floor windows so diners have a great view of the snowy trees outside. The whole place is just really really beautiful. I was too lazy to take photos though. And they serve the best tempura and dessert. Chocolate fondue yo.

End of Day 3. I'm tired of blogging already. I can't believe I actually spent so much time blogging so much about the trip. Good night.

Long holiday post, beware.

2008-12-20T20:08:00.022+08:00

Alright I'm finally here to blog about the trip. I want to blog all about it even though it's going to take real long cos it really really had been very fun, but I'm sorry if I don't sound it because my mood now isn't exactly great.

Food was superb. Buffet meals almost every time. David the tour guide was really nice. Our tour group's really huge. 30 over people, with my family of 7 the biggest bunch. I travelled with my cousin and his parents and my cousin's cousin with her mum.

P.S. I'm really sorry for the huge amount of photos. I already sifted through them many many times. I've left out a lot already. =(

Day 1

Flying off. Yan and Ethel came to send me off! And that boy is my cousin.

You know how Singapore always only have a few lip balms to select from in stores? They have a whole rack full of it in Japan:

Pretty ear muffs.

Smokers in Japan are restricted to smoking only in a glass box where there are air filters. They should do this in Singapore la. Sorry if the photo's not clear cos erm I was trying to shoot discreetly.

My mum damn act cute =.=

Ducks in stream:

Chocolate Factory. Wasn't really a factory. A bit of a disappointment. The place's still really pretty though.

Next was Music Box Museum in this really pretty town. The photos do the place no justice at all. =(

Lavender, milk and melon soft cream. Really good stuff.

Next was really good dinner.

Day 2

Cousin.

Look he's all bundled up hahahah.

They sell cigarettes in vending machines.

Next was zoo. But there's too much photos so I'm leaving this part out. But I have to show u guys this really cute tractor.

And this really cute kid

Cousin's cousin did this.

When it started snowing the first time since we landed.

Cool guy who carves wood.

Went to this place where it's -21 degrees and -41 degrees.

Towels soaked in water were frozen in a matter of minutes.

Right after this we crashed at a curve because the 'driver' in front of me went over the barrier. It was damn funny because we were all stuck and couldn't get up. Didnt ask for photos of the crash from one of the uncles who shot it, sadly.

Frozen waterfall.

Hotel room with tatami mats and all. This what we all wear to the hot spring. Everyone's naked, females and males seperated of course, and we girls have only a small towel to cover the front of us. Hot spring was damn shiok. Especially the outdoor one. Head freezing and body hot. Sounds wrong. But it really was whooo shiok.

And many of the toilets there have this. Cleans your down theres. Even the pad bins are automated. Just hover your palm over the sensor. They should have these here.

Alright end of Day 2. Will continue on another post. Too much for a single post. I'm already quite tired of blogging.

2008-12-20T19:39:00.002+08:00

Don't make me think I sacrificed my pride for nothing. It's your turn now to take the initaitive.

I'm baaack!

2008-12-20T14:10:00.004+08:00

And I miss the snow already. =(

Missing the past week where life was all about having fun. I've forgotten how much I've gladly left behind when I left and now I'm back to face it all all over again. I can so totally live my life there.

Will blog all about the trip soon, promise. It was sooo fuuuuunnnnn ahhhhh i wanna go back i wanna go back i wanna go back.

But my computer's lagging with all the photos in it so it might take me awhile to blog.

I feel like I've been happily dead for awhile and now I'm back and alive to feel the dread again.

Fill me in on all that's been happening please.

2008-12-13T19:37:00.002+08:00

I'm off to the land of sushi soon. But while waiting for the mum to get ready to leave I'm here blogging and facebooking. I'll miss this last few hours in sunny Singapore. But I'll be back for Christmas! Wheeeee.

I'll be back on the 19th midnight.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Read your blog before I left. Did it occur to you that all that you wrote applied to me as well?

long long photo post of overdue photos

2008-12-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

Yes. I have finally decided to post these overdue photos. Because they are memories that I want to document on my blog.

So here they are.

My 18th. (:

They got me a cow balloon.

Shi's 19th:

While waiting for the birthday girl..

here she is.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAA.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Continuous shots lead to disaster. For the full series go to yan's blog k.

CDI! Long overdue yes I know.

Pretty cupcakes.

Wrapping gift boxes:

Look! yan's a mannequin.

Hahaharvey.

And Hitachi Tower was crazy to do. Poor alicia had to climb up 4 m to measure, screw, and hang up the banners. And Hitachi Tower has the worst shit staff.

On the train to somewhere. I forgot where we were travelling to. All I remember was tt we had been running all over the place the whole day.

And we took a whole row of seats on the train woots. So when we got up to leave people standing in front of us were stunned. Haha.

Yay no more. Off to cut fabric. For real now.

my pimple cream spurted and i broke my clock

2008-12-07T10:53:00.003+08:00

What a great way to start the day. If Harvey's wish came true he's probably still sleeping now.

=.=

Jas tagged me. Nooooo. Was hoping I ddin't get tagged while reading her post. Anw here goes. A quick one.

P.s. there's sth wrong with blogger so my font format will prolly be the same as jas's

Name?
Ying! Ying!

Height?
165.5cm

Age?
18

Tomboy or Girly Girl?
More of a tomboy?

Describe your beauty routine?
currently: Wash, lotions, lotions. needs scrubs badly helloooo

Describe your hair?
Long and wavy

Describe your personal style?
i wish i'm boho/beachy/free but i think i'm not

Do you…
Like metrosexual boys?
yea, alright with them, i think.

Like accessories?
hell yeahhhh

Like high heels?
yeah yeahhhhhh, i think.

Like matchy matchy, or mix and match?
both?

Spend a lot of money on beauty products in general?
yea. i spend a lot on everything in general i think.

Shop online for clothes?
yea

favorite…?
Article of clothing in your closet?
the long tee, the beige mango top, the white mphosis top, most of the shorts (the brown, pink, blue, denim, printed) . (:

Makeup line?
no particular one

Skincare line?
ditto

Perfume?
still dkny's be delicious

Colours to wear?
white beige brown black grey. (am in the midst of adding colours)

what stuff…
What is a trend you dislike the most?
idk

What is your fashion philosophy?
idk. i just wear, see, love whatever i want.

What kind of shoes do you like?
sandals and loafers. on rare occasions sneakers.

What is your biggest fashion problem?
flat chest helloo

What old trends do you think should come back?
idk

What one piece are you dying to add to your wardrobe?
currently? jodphurs, that cream jacket from f21, that tank from cotton on, that skirt from cotton on

Misc…
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
when i'm slack it's 20 mins when dress up it's 45 mins?

Would you ever go out in public without makeup?
yea

If you had a fashion budget of 1 million dollars, where would you shop, and why?
Splurge on a..something. and spend the rest at zara, f21, whatever.

Is there anything you absolutely CANT wear?
shoulder padsssssss. yuck.

If you had to pick one designer to wear for the rest of your life, who would it be, and why?
I CANT CHOOSE JUST ONE LA HAIYA.

Wanna tag 5 people to do this too?
val

shi

ethel

and...
whoever.

off to cut fabric. byeeee.

so cute.

2008-12-06T00:51:00.005+08:00

Research for children's wear. Look how cute these are.

Ah uber cuteness:

Now whenever I see kids I feel like a pedophile because I'm so in love with their cuteness.
Aah aah.

)`:

2008-11-30T23:44:00.004+08:00

Remember I said at the start of the year, I had a strong feeling that this year would be damn sucky, especially towards the end?

It can get any worse than this. Everything feels so bad right now I almost can't believe it.

Strong feelings are accurate. They really, really are.

so i looked back for a little while and realised that i miss those times

2008-11-24T21:24:00.001+08:00

i miss the 10, or 9 rather, of you.
and the whole school of you.
and the whole bunch of you.
and then there's you, you, you,
and you.

=(

Live life, simply.

2008-11-23T11:59:00.003+08:00

So I finally got myself going and did some work in the morning, and while doing work I was chatting with my mum.

No wonder they say mothers are amazing, it's true.

I see more of my life now than before. I see that life will not forever be the beautiful garden that I want it to. Thunderstorms will pass, flowers will be destroyed, but they'll grow again with some patience and nurturing.

I see now that all I have to do is strive, come what may.

I'm sorry for the bad person I have been the past few weeks or so. I guess I've lost myself back there and I'm now in the process of finding it back. Still is, but I'll be able to get it back, it's just a matter of time.

I just want to live happy, do what I want, do what my instincts propel me to, with no reservations, no hesitation, and no regrets.

"When times get bad, just keep moving forward, because the road will forever be there, no matter how unclear."

And when I die I wouldn't want to disappear into blackness just like that. I would want to be able to go through my life briefly once again and relive the moments that carved my life into the way it was and made me who I am.

For now I promise that when I get lost I'll try to get myself out, I promise I'll try and be a better person, and I promise that when I smile, it'll be genuine.

Nickelback - Photograph

2008-11-23T11:58:00.000+08:00

"Photograph"

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...

the blank post.

2008-11-21T00:42:00.004+08:00

What would you do if, all within 2 weeks,

you're playing cold war with your best friend,
you've almost suggested a break up,
you realised that you're probably in the wrong course and you're a failure in your own specialism.
you realised that the closest bunch of people are no longer the same closest bunch of people?

B-L-A-N-K.

Utterly disappointed. I really don't know what to say. There wasn't a single bit of concern from you guys. Thanks. Thanks for being so caring.

I'm really just waiting for something to happen to the family. That would really make everything complete. Or for a car to crash me. I'll just let life drift me away.

I don't get it. What do I owe life to deserve all these all at the same time?

Fuck.

2008-11-19T23:36:00.003+08:00

Alright. So I'm here, and what should I say now? This month has been one hell of a roller coaster ride, and it's quite amazing that I've managed to hold on till now. Too busy, too busy. Work is taking over my life mercilessly.

I had been motivated, excited, angry, frustrated, unreasonable, depressed, hopeful, disappointed. Disappointed with too many people, and these people are the ones that I never thought would from the start. Disappointed with myself, for all the things I did not manage to do nor carry out well. Disappointed with life, for turning out this way this month, this year. There is just too many too much.

But all in all, things seem to be looking up now. Probably because it's almost Christmas, and the devil in my life is feeling that bit happier, thus he decided to not torment me as much. I'm still not very into the Christmas mood now though, which is also another disappointment.

ANYWAY. CDI is over! Rejoice! Will post pictures when I have them, same for Shi's birthday surprise. Meanwhile just head over to Yan's blog okay because she is less of a procrastinator.

So yep CDI is over! Like finally. No more bitchy staff that makes us want to just end our life in their stores. No more walking/training/cabbing short distances ever so often with heavy bags of materials. No more squeezing into displays playing mannequin that people stare at. Granted, I didn't help as much as I was supposed to due to ADP, but I found the whole thing yes, tiring, and also in a weird afterthought kind of way, fun as well. Tempers were thrown, frustration let out, and too much emotional stuff going on (in me), but still, it's the group work that really worked right?

Right.

I think I gained arm muscles while doing this CDI. Serious.

So.

Back to sucky ADP. Gotta finish up the crazy shit garment. Not going to finish it on time. Like I ever thought it could be anyway.

OHOH I almost forgot. I met Theresa! Might be able to do Christmas gift wrapping again this year! 3rd year in a row woosh! And just that last night I was disappointed because I thought there will be no Christmas gift wrapping this year. Not sure if I can make it though.

And Tk's alumni dinner this friday. Something more to look forward to.

2008-11-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

I'm here because I'm procrastinating gathering my patterns for ADP.

Shall start soon though.

=(
=(
=(

Oh wells oh wells oh wells.

At least my Colour&Light's completed. Wheeeee.

Sew, ying, sew.

2008-11-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

Not looking forward to Christmas break as much anymore because I never realised that after Japan there's your Genting. So that more or less reduces the two weeks to about three days now.

):

And this block sucked. Correction, sucks. Still does. This week is...indescribable. I feel like a robot.

Off to continue chionging. May good thoughts and feelings stay within me and drive me forward.

2008-11-11T00:34:00.001+08:00

I really want this week to be over.

Then I'll be happy again.

So cute.

2008-11-10T01:36:00.002+08:00

Lies I've told my 3 year old recently

Trees talk to each other at night.

All fish are named either Lorna or Jack.

Before your eyeballs fall out from watching too much TV, they get very loose.

Tiny bears live in drain pipes.

If you are very very quiet you can hear the clouds rub against the sky.

The moon and the sun had a fight a long time ago.

Everyone knows at least one secret language.

When nobody is looking, I can fly.

We are all held together by invisible threads.

Books get lonely too.

Sadness can be eaten.

I will always be there.

Am sick of doing work. In completing this assignment I think I spent half the time waiting for a transformation to be applied, text font to change, layers to be moved etc.

Cool sheeet

2008-11-09T12:31:00.003+08:00

http://www.creativereview.co.uk/crblog/underwater-magic/

It's Diesel's Spring/Summer 2008 Runway if you're wondering. Sorry if it's outdated but I just found it now and whoooosshhh, stunning!

Just think that the attention's taken away from the clothes.

Catch the vid if you can, and if you get too bored in the middle fast forward to the end.
Must catch the end hor.

virtual shoes

2008-11-09T10:26:00.004+08:00

CHIO, CHIO!

virtualmuseum.com

you wont regret it.

2008-11-06T21:25:00.004+08:00

The reason why I'm here is because Hotmail is taking forever to attach photos. Gmail was effing pissing because it kept sending delivery failure notification messages to me.

I want to start work but I can't.

I'm hopelessly behind time and I don't see myself chionging to get back on track. It's bad. And I don't like my design. And the garment is so hard to sew. I'm going to die.

Photos from my old cam:

Found this photo. Chocolates for favourite friends, erm for valentine's I think.

Cousin's birthday...

Guy in teevee wants cake.

And when the kids's finally got to play with the dry ice...

=.=

okay that's all byebye. Shall find something else to amuse me while the photos get uploaded.

2008-11-04T00:39:00.002+08:00

Was hoping what makes me happy need not be verbalised, would be guessed, could have been initiated.

Don't see it happening.

Do I really make my goals and wishes too difficult to achieve?

2008-11-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

Today could have been a very good ecp evening. The kind I haven't had in a long time.

2008-10-31T21:49:00.003+08:00

It's really so amazing how quickly time has passed. Like freakishly fast. Half block left to go. Toile and draft should be completed by Tuesday but I doubt I can make it.

Been finding it hard to chiong hw all the time. Tending to slack off now, oh no.

It has only been 2 weeks into school and I already want my holidays back quite desperately. Help.

2008-10-31T01:00:00.001+08:00

Happen to come across this so, Happy Halloween.

School's been sucky yet not sucky, if you know what I mean. Anyway, life's pretty much monotonous, yet filled with all the roller coaster thoughts.

Don't really know what I'm rambling bout so yeah good night.

THE COW BALLOON'S DEFLATING ALREADY. =(

2008-10-27T14:57:00.004+08:00

On my previous birthday post, I shall clarify, that 'yan and gang' is referring to Shiqi, Mingbei, Jas and Yan, and Alicia and Ethel who were not present.

Nah shi happy? hahaha.

I'm like damn suay yesterday because after disk cleaning and defragmenting my computer, which took a few hours, my connection broke down just as I was about to start work, and I started contacting I don't know how many people, in the hope that somewhere out there there is an available computer for me to use.

But yeah now my connection's all right.

I shall finally start work.

2008-10-26T15:02:00.004+08:00

So...wow. Aaah the peacock feather. Genius.

Don't know if I've posted this before but this is also. so. good.

Creds to The Sart.

she sells sea shells on the sea shore

2008-10-26T14:45:00.006+08:00

I went to stand by the window and it occured to me how much I would miss the sea if I were to move away. Mummy says she wants to move, probably to Bishan, or to that area at least. And there is no sea there.

If we moved I'll probably suffer from withdrawal symptoms every night. I would cry imagining the sea, hear the waves calling me, feel the breeze pulling me just a little bit closer. I would aim to save up and move back to this area when I grow up, and when I retire I would move to some place impossibly beautiful and close to the sea. My house would have to be on the sand, or on a cliff at least, so that when I die I would die listening to the crashing of the waves.

Right. Back to reality.

I cannot imagine being far from the sea. The sea is home. It is where all my memories are.
I. do. not. want. to. move. =(

the dramatic birthday post.

2008-10-26T00:16:00.005+08:00

So today was good and bad. Good because it's such a memorable birthday. Bad because the most memorable parts are bad happenings. Today is like so dramatic. I have a feeling it's going to be a damn long post so yeah read on only if you're sure you won't get tired of me recounting my day.

The first half of the day went well. Mingqi came first and gave me my present, which I already knew what it was. (Perks of having a best friend. Just name your present and you get it hahaah.) Met up with the boyfriend after that, and exchanged presents. HAHA funny. Anyway, the sweet guy made me a dreamcatcher, something I've always wanted, for the longest time. Thanks for making me feel lucky. (: Hope you like your present.

Oh oh and Apple and gang wanted to give him a surprise so I was supposed to be helping them but I guess we failed a little towards the end due to bad timing. But still all was good in the end. Haha.

Then was on to meeting Yan and gang (everyone was late so everyone was on time) while the boyfriend goes off to meet his other friends. So we went cycling, and this is where all the drama came in. We were on our way back to the bike rental shop already and everything was fine till there was this big gang of people walking on the cycling path. So I think Yan crashed and swerved and lost control and the bike toppled and she landed half in front, half on the bike. Everything was like in slow motion yet happened very fast. Our slippers, her phone, her bag, everything, were all over the place. Her bike basket got flattened, the pedal came loose, and my front gear got stuck. So! She had to walk the bike all the way back and I had to lift the bike and depend on the back wheel all the way from Jumbo to the rental shop. Do any of you ever realise how effing heavy a bike is?! Knn.

Ok so anyway we ate at Kenny Rogers and all was well until a waiter came and asked, 'Erm, you guys had a cake right? Do you want us to bring it out now?' All was stunned. I really rreally thought it wasn't ours because all of them had blank faces. Then Yan said yeah and Jas went, 'It was meant to be surprise and you just told our birthday girl the surprise.' THEN, guess what.

Waiter: 'Erm yeah, so do you want me to bring the cake out now?'

Classic.

ANYWAY, they were closing already so we ta-powed and went to the pavillion for the cake cutting and all that. The girls gave me a huge red balloon with a cow and many kisses on it, which I didn't see until after the cake cutting. Blind or what, I don't know. It's now hovering over me while I'm typing this. They prepared sparklers too which we were supposed to play but didn't because it was too late. ):

Alright so the whole recount's there. Somehow the bad things that happened just made today even more special and memorable. Somehow. Haha. Thanks for everything, and though I think I don't show it much, I really appreciated every single moment of today. And Yan and gang are smart. They got me book vouchers which I have been secretly hoping for HAHHAHA. Love the cards and all the stuff you guys prepared too, thank you. Love you guys lots. And of course the dreamcatcher, how can I miss that out. (:

I feel lucky. This year's may not be big. But somehow this year's just extra extra special.
(:

Thanks for everything, and thanks to all who wished me. (:

Photos will be posted when I receive them. Good night all.

2008-10-19T22:20:00.004+08:00

OMG I'm so tired. alright i'm really tired so i give up typing in normal caps. pressing one more key now and then is really draining.

i can't believe sch's really starting soon. like er, tomorrow. and the last weekend just flew by like that! and i had expected at least a little bit of rest time now and then but alas, my weekend was gone just like that.

gathering with shihui and gang was fun. been some time since i last had fun with them. much thanks to shihui for organising. dinner was cool at this uluated place that sells good chinese pizza and red bean something something (shiok!). jialing had much fun irritating amos (as usual) and we had much fun laughing at them and anna's bimbo-ness.

fast forward a few hours later and kaysee was drunk. rolled off my bed and couldn't remember a thing in the morning, haha. and oh dear, i only found out yesterday that i'm allergic to alcohol (!!!) .

and when we were hungry enough to finally get off the bed, floor, mattress, whatever, we headed to katong for laksa, which was also very shiok, especially so since we had to wait for the rain to stop. i swear, we were damn suay. rained so heavily the moment we got off the bus.

then it was off to mark and family for his birthday dinner, which in a way was also my birthday dinner i guess, but i dont know if it's his or both mine and his or was it unplanned for mine and his and that it was only his.

but anyway, i really had fun, and, yay, received presents. oooh.

shit. school's starting tomorrow. dammit.
i have colour and light with amos, dammit. HAHAHHA.
okay bye.

[edit] not a good post but im sorry, am tired. so bye.

2008-10-17T23:32:00.001+08:00

you felt like a dream.
while you're here, nothing else seems important.
but once you're gone,
i'm thrown back into reality again.

2008-10-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

Sigh. The holidays are ending soon.

There's so much to do still, but so little time left. How can time ever go so quickly? Even holidays-extra time given to us to spend freely- aren't enough for us to catch up on life. When then, will we really really have sufficient time for everything?

For how long, is a person allowed and able to keep things inside?
Is that length of time dependable on how strong the person really is?

2008-10-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

Was bored. These are just for fun. Tell me how accurate they are alright?

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The Real You

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper (i know i'm not sweet and proper); your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Some other quiz.

Here is the analysis:

Your ideal mate has a sense of humor and is lively.
You always compare yourself with others. You make your wishes too difficult to come true.
You are in despair about your lack of success. That's your attitudes towards success.
You are a person of principle. You respect social rules and regulations.
You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.

I can cook good pork with capsicums and mushrooms

2008-10-11T11:03:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was another fun day. Mingqi and I attempted cooking a proper meal for ourselves, so now we know we don't have to always depend on others for proper food.

Anyway, we started looking for recipes at the last minute, before we set off to get ingredients. HOWEVER, we cleverly left the chicken curry recipe and ingredients list at my place, but we were already on our way to Parkway. THUS, we resorted to copying recipes from Popular and Giant. Heh.

When that's done we finally began ingredients-shopping like housewives, and knn we spent goddamn long looking for an ingredient that seemed non-existent, and the absence of this stupid ingredient failed our chicken dish. =(

But the omelette and pork were gooooood. =)

So overall it was all good, besides the change in recipes and the tamarind concentrate which we couldn't find. In between flying onions, dirty chicken and misreading the recipe, we still managed to churn out edible food.

And I have decided, that I shall learn how to cook more dishes!

=))))))))))))))))

My Mummy's gonna be so proud of me!

The past few days has been good. Great actually. I learnt cycling, I learnt cooking, I'm meeting up with everyone, I'm having lots of fun while getting some work done in between.... This is probably the most productive holiday I've had in my entire 18 years. A pity it's gonna end in like a week. =(

Oh wells, more cycling later!!! =D

hello bicycles

2008-10-10T10:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was so much fun! Astons, blading and cycling, dinner at Macs, then Mingbei and I finally learnt how to cycle! We're fast learners okay.

Have a few shots of Yan and Jas at the jetty but the cam's with Yan. Shall post up another day when I feel like it, haha.

See Ethel! You missed out on all the fun! =ppppppppppppp

But we shall all go back soon!

Felt so accomplished yesterday. 4 hours of exercise! (: But now my butt hurts, from an abrasion and the cycling. ):

a post full of laughter

2008-10-07T21:57:00.008+08:00

I shall blog about Sunday. Because Sunday was a reallllllly fun day. Sushi dinner at vivo's roof top (budget yo!) with a happy bunch of friends so we get a happy night out. =DDDDDDDDDDDDD

The view's really nice. Look!

Yan arrived late and Bei and Jas started playing toe scissors paper stone. The classic game with a twist! So that means double the fun! Yay!

Mingbei looks really retarded here but the pic's blur, shit.

Winner of toe scissors paper stone!

And the happy loser.

Yan stuffed with sushi.

Then we started playing edelweiss and Jas started taking pretty blur photos, which explains the following train of photos.

Then we decided to head to B&J's for some really happy food.

Cute kid alert!

IdunowhatJasisdoing.

(:

And amidst all these were bouts of laughter when
Mingbei had toe cramps playing scissors paper stone,
Yan thought her nail polish was chocolate,
Mingbei being slow and retarded during our conversations,
and
and
and
yeah.

((((((((((((((:

THURSDAY'S COMING! =D

when the vague is actually ugly

2008-10-06T20:05:00.004+08:00

There are actually fun things to blog about, and I promise I will blog about them. It's just that right now the good feelings are fading and bad things, major or minor, are starting to overwhelm me. It feels, I don't know, ominous.

Things just don't feel very right. I feel like something's going to hit me real bad soon. Maybe it's just me, or maybe it won't come in the near future, but no matter which, I can't help feeling that way. I almost feel like I have to wait for something to come crashing.

Shit. I'm turning mad I think.

I feel scared. Like, really really scared. I don't know if I'll ever say it. I don't know if it's right or normal for me to feel this way. But I'm so scared of things I don't know, it's really killing me.
I no longer see my soul, can no longer see who I am. I no longer hear my thoughts, no longer feel my emotions. Tell me what's wrong and what right, and guide me back to where I am. Please, I beg you. Someone. Anyone.

2008-10-04T10:59:00.001+08:00

Shit there's like no time to complete work cos I'm like waiting for so many things to happen before I can actually start. And effing hotmail just doesn't want to work.

Why are my holidays so crappy.

FFFFFFFF.

2008-10-03T11:23:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it's a wonder even to me how I can get emotional so easily. I wonder if others are like that, I wonder why they aren't like that, I wonder if you knew I'm like that, I wonder if you understand why I'm like that.

For now I just want to snuggle up to warmth, and feel secure in a safe world, like a child in the arms of a parent.

In 5 years time I'll click back and see what retarded friends I have.

2008-10-02T23:47:00.003+08:00

Mingbei has been doing this for the past I don't know how long: (click to enlarge)

Retarded, as always.

And yes you haven't seen it wrongly. I am using the damn old school version of messenger because the new versions don't like my computer.

2008-10-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

Mummy just got me a new phone. A new pink phone. A new bimbotic pink phone. LG Viewty. Having mixed feelings about it. Alright with the LG, not exactly ecstatic about the pink though. Not that I abhor pink, it's just not in the shade I like. Now I feel like a bimbo who buys a phone just because it's pink. Craps.

I miss my old phone already. Simply because it's been through some time with me. And it's so damn user-friendly. And it has all my photos. And all the saved messages. And

Yeah.

=(

2008-09-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

Am currently very annoyed by a particular person who won't even realise she's the subject of my annoy-ness, if there's such a word (but you get what I mean).

You know sometimes in life you meet cocky people who aren't trained in your field yet wants to be and thinks they're so bloody good in it? You know you're not good enough because you've seen what's good and what's not and these people are all not yet they act like they are? You've been trying so hard to improve yourself and then these people come and flaunt their mediocre works and they get job opportunities that you don't?

Feel like slapping them, won't you?

I shall stop here and think more pleasant stuffs. Except there aren't much pleasant stuffs for me to think about. Thus I shall continue being useless and unmotivated, just like how useless and unmotivated I have been the past few days.

Sigh.

effing results are out

2008-09-30T19:00:00.001+08:00

I wanted to blog a long long pictureful post because today's a (supposedly) happy day but results just killed my mood.

Maybe tomorrow.

Sigh. So disappointed.

Love

2008-09-24T11:44:00.002+08:00

We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work.

Despite popular culture, love doesn't happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

-Adrian Tan

2008-09-23T10:11:00.002+08:00

Don't feel like blogging much these days. I might go on an indefinite hiatus. Which probably won't last for more than erm, a week?

We'll see.

2008-09-19T23:42:00.004+08:00

It's already the end of the block. Or the semester. It's the holidays, but it doesn't feel like the start of holidays at all.

Shall try my very best not to think about work AT ALL. It's killing me.

I have lots of things that I really really want to blog about, just to get it out of my system, but I can't, simply because the mood doesn't feel right. Quite stupid, I know.

2008-09-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

"Every night, I used to pray to be happy, but recently I stopped praying because it just seems to get worse, and I get tired."

I don't like how I'm slowly turning into a different kind of person. I don't want myself to and I don't like the kind of person I see myself turning into. It scares me but I don't know how to stop myself. I need someone to show me what to do, and guide me back to where I was before.

Someone.

And I guess most of the time I'm just afraid of being disappointed. For umpteen times I have gotten my hopes up only to have them brought down with a thud. I've stopped myself from hoping because I feel I have to. I put in less effort because I don't feel appreciated. But to only take and not give would be unfair, I know.

Sorry.

Whatever.

2008-09-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

I don't get how a day can end so roller coaster-y.

Anyway, today was eventful, or at least so at the end of the day. Crazy dinner and ice cream with mingqi. We looked like we went high on ice cream or something. Proof that ice cream makes the world a happier place (shi your point is proven).

ANYWAY. Holidays are coming. Something to look forward to.

I am on a saving frenzy because I realised I have the stupid guy's present to prepare spending on, gary's stupid present that I have to spend on (glares at gary), and daddy's birthday is coming (even though most of the money for the present doesn't come from me) and I want to get daddy and mummy decent christmas presents this year.

So yea. I shall be good and save.

Meanwhile I shall wait happily for my birthday to come and hope for decent presents.

*keeps fingers crossed*

I can like already come up with a birthday list but I think I shall not.

Laaaaaaas.

.

I know why they always say "Go ahead and cry if you feel like it, you'll feel better."
It's because refraining yourself just makes you feel like crying even more.
So that means, might as well just cry right.

i'm bored

2008-09-14T22:54:00.003+08:00

I'm here because I'm procrastinating. No one has work to do and they are all doing their own stuff so I am receiving slow replies on msn. No one wants to entertain bored me.

And it thrills me more to see another post on my blog than to finish up my work.

Which is very stupid, I know, considering my so-called work is just to prepare for group presentation tomorrow, and I only have 4 slides.

Ho hum.

Alright I think I'm done here because I can't find anything else to blog about. I shall find something else to entertain me. My life is so stupid.

Bye.

2008-09-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

I'm like so tired even though I shouldn't be, considering the fact that I haven't been putting in a lot of effort in work. But a lot of things have been going on so life's still in a mess all the same. I think I'm gonna have to depend on my organiser the whole time, which is bad because then my memory will serve no purpose and deteriorate. =(

Anyway, have lots to blog about, and lots of photos to post, but now's just not the time yet.

So I don't know what this post is for.

Shall get back to work.

Wish me luck and good days ahead, I need it.

stop to dream, while i still have the chance

2008-09-10T21:29:00.006+08:00

maybe in a few years i'll click back and see how naive i've been
thinking that life's this simple,
this straightforward,
this blissful

but all i can do now, is to stop when i can and smell the sweet roses

and hope for bad times to fly by faster.

cause i'm loving
loving all that's around
loving all that you do

When is life going to be like this

2008-09-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

Overdue

2008-09-09T21:17:00.007+08:00

I'm happy today because I had great great lunch at Aston's with mummy, and she got me linen pants and a jacket from G2 Black Label. Crazy sale.

And finally, pictures from the previous block:

This was our workplace for a month.

Crazy drafting

Top and bottom- Pallid Palette at work.

This is what we do at lunch to rid ourselves of stress.

Erm. Shiqi. Don't know if she'll kill me for this but, heh.

Happy times in the tent:

Scandalous.

Will miss all these craziness.

We don't really like shi.

We look so happy.

I look like I had drugs or something.

To view more go to yan's blog. Haha.

I want Chinatown dessert, Ikea meatballs, ECP's Kenny's and ECP's Macs (for dessert after Kenny's).

=(

Sushi Buffet

2008-09-09T11:19:00.004+08:00

Not really in the mood to blog. These shall do for now.

Bye.